It's something new

It's different. This feeling. So I'm just going to say it out loud. So, here it goes.

Have you ever felt like this? When school/university/college is starting after the long/short semester break, you can't wait to go back. But, when thinking about facing people there, you hesitate for a moment. It's not actually a bad thing. You go to your old friends instead of the new ones. Why? In facebook, you try to keep in touch? Connect awhile like normal times, but it feels awkward after stopping for so long. The problem is that the bond you built was just not strong enough. It's like building a bridge for 5 months then stopping for a 1 month rest. By the time you are supposed to get back to work, you hesitate. Thinking of the likelihood of something happening, you're too adjusted to the holiday mood, of being away from those people. It's like every time you start to build strong bonds, things paused. Maybe it's just trying to test if this friendship will actually last next time.

To me, this feeling is very different from last time. In secondary school, we used to be together for like 6 months, have a short break and then get back together. and this happened for 5 years straight. So I guessed that no one felt anything. But, in the end, our bond was stronger than ever. Even after a year of minimal interaction or contact with them, you still know them like the back of your hand (I don't know why I'm using this phrase even though I don't really know the back of my hand, but oh well, just following the crowd I guess?).

But one of the most amazing bonds I have were built in just 2 weeks. You know who you are. All the 69+48?+ some more people (sorry I forgotten our batch's number! I'm sooo sorrry!)It was really amazing. Those bonds still stay strong even till today, after 2 years plus. In my batch, we respected each other and treated each other equally. We never look down on another, we support, and most importantly, we loved and cared so much about each other that we feel that we are brothers and sisters from another mother/father.