I give up.

I'm a girl that thinks like a guy. But I can't stop acting like how a girl acts, think like how a girl thinks and have emotions like how a girl feels. To me, friendship is everything in the world after my family. So, I value every single one of my friends and cherish them. I will never try to hurt or make anyone feel left out. But apparently, that's not how things are going for me. "What goes around comes back around, eh?" Bullshit lar.

I don't wish for people to be grateful for my existence or even cherish my presence. I do not think that I am soo special that one should treat me like a princess, queen or whatsoever. I just wish not to be left out. Not to feel left out. I hate that feeling. Seriously. I hate being all alone. It seems that even when you're there in person, I'll still feel lonely as ever.

I remember the first time I saw you. I told myself,"This person is dangerous. Not worth being a friend." But I still became your friend in the end. And look where it got me to. A series of hurtful times. You made me feel insecure with who I am. Made me scared of being alone once again. You are not worth being my friend at all. You are not worth even a bit of my attention anymore. I give up. I seriously give up.